Rennard
07-21-2005, 09:10 PM
Hey all. Wasn't sure where to post this, so I figured I'd do it here, as I have no access to the private OoD forums where the people who I want to see this can, and the VN is too public for my taste.
The bottom line is that I'm not having fun at the moment. I can deal with just about everything, but being forced into soloing 100% of the time, against the Mid 8-mans and Vampginas (in groups of 6) all over the place it's not the fun/stress relieveing and enjoyable game that it used to be.
Jay headed off to Gareth (After being M.I.A for the last month or so), and during that time I had a blast filling in whatever spot you guys needed. I didn't head right over there because I enjoyed the new type of RvR, and was learning to do well, at least I think so. It gave me the chance to not only play that new style, but to play with a group of people I really enjoyed being around, I was having fun with you guys. But just like I told several of the people when we were playing in Mid, I was always trying to be careful not to have "too" much fun, or to get to attached to the situation. I failed at that task.
Recently (last week or so), I find myself solo, with no one around, and listening to people talk in TS about how good the new group is going to be, when that is combined with the fact that I know I'm not a par of that, it becomes difficult to deal with. Well, as was the case in Mid, I find myself the odd-man out, though I don't blame anyone for this because I put myself in the situation. I know that honestly I shouldn't feel slighted at all, because, like I said, it was a situation of my own creation, but I guess it's something I can't help but feel.
But still, I was always there whenever anyone needed anything, and I always tried to help. I hope that can be how people think of me. Right now, there just isn't a lot of fun in the game for me, and I found it upsetting me today. When that happens I know I've got to take a look at things, cause if this game isn't a stress reliever, well then its not what it should be.
I'm not 100% sure yet, but I know by stepping back I can see what is going on, and I can understand why it has me so upset. Being on the outside looking in isn't a good situation, but being on the outside, rarely even getting to look inside is much worse.
Other than that I really don't know what to say. Maybe I have the situation/attitude wrong, but I don't think so. This isn't any type of attack, but I needed to let everyone know how I felt, cause it was getting difficult to be constantly overlooked. It's difficult for me to constantly help people (Scrolls/Arties/Pling/grouping/etc..), then be just set to the side on occasion. Again, I don't think this is personal, maybe its just a matter of passing under the radar, but it hurts nonetheless. Just needed to get it out there, for my own sanity if nothing else.
P.s. I'm not sure how many of all of my OoD friends really read this forum, but I figured it was my best shot.
The bottom line is that I'm not having fun at the moment. I can deal with just about everything, but being forced into soloing 100% of the time, against the Mid 8-mans and Vampginas (in groups of 6) all over the place it's not the fun/stress relieveing and enjoyable game that it used to be.
Jay headed off to Gareth (After being M.I.A for the last month or so), and during that time I had a blast filling in whatever spot you guys needed. I didn't head right over there because I enjoyed the new type of RvR, and was learning to do well, at least I think so. It gave me the chance to not only play that new style, but to play with a group of people I really enjoyed being around, I was having fun with you guys. But just like I told several of the people when we were playing in Mid, I was always trying to be careful not to have "too" much fun, or to get to attached to the situation. I failed at that task.
Recently (last week or so), I find myself solo, with no one around, and listening to people talk in TS about how good the new group is going to be, when that is combined with the fact that I know I'm not a par of that, it becomes difficult to deal with. Well, as was the case in Mid, I find myself the odd-man out, though I don't blame anyone for this because I put myself in the situation. I know that honestly I shouldn't feel slighted at all, because, like I said, it was a situation of my own creation, but I guess it's something I can't help but feel.
But still, I was always there whenever anyone needed anything, and I always tried to help. I hope that can be how people think of me. Right now, there just isn't a lot of fun in the game for me, and I found it upsetting me today. When that happens I know I've got to take a look at things, cause if this game isn't a stress reliever, well then its not what it should be.
I'm not 100% sure yet, but I know by stepping back I can see what is going on, and I can understand why it has me so upset. Being on the outside looking in isn't a good situation, but being on the outside, rarely even getting to look inside is much worse.
Other than that I really don't know what to say. Maybe I have the situation/attitude wrong, but I don't think so. This isn't any type of attack, but I needed to let everyone know how I felt, cause it was getting difficult to be constantly overlooked. It's difficult for me to constantly help people (Scrolls/Arties/Pling/grouping/etc..), then be just set to the side on occasion. Again, I don't think this is personal, maybe its just a matter of passing under the radar, but it hurts nonetheless. Just needed to get it out there, for my own sanity if nothing else.
P.s. I'm not sure how many of all of my OoD friends really read this forum, but I figured it was my best shot.